q u e e r l y * w r i t t e n

it’s been almost two weeks since i’ve posted anything here, and even longer than that since i’ve written anything of a personal nature. i think it may be time to just close the book. i have no interest in writing anymore about my worries and fears or my insecurities and doubts. maybe if i don’t write about them, they’ll just cease to exist and everything will be ok. nah, that doesn’t work, beacuse that’s what i’ve been trying. i don’t check stats anymore, but if comments are a judge of how many people are even reading these days, it’s not worth blogging at all. the only comments i get are spam for viagra and online gambling.

maybe from now on, i’ll just post pictures. or jokes. or sex stories.

anyways… this may be goodbye, or i may be back. who knows. at this point, i don’t.

shadows fill an empty heart
as love is fading,
from all the things that we are
but are not saying.
can we see beyond the scars
and make it to the dawn?

change the colors of the sky.
and open up to
the ways you made me feel alive,
the ways i loved you.
for all the things that never died,
to make it through the night,
love will find you.

what about now?
what about today?
what if you’re making me all that i was meant to be?
what if our love never went away?
what if it’s lost behind words we could never find?
baby, before it’s too late,
what about now?

the sun is breaking in your eyes
to start a new day.
this broken heart can still survive
with a touch of your grace.
shadows fade into the light.
i am by your side,
where love will find you.

now that we’re here,
now that we’ve come this far,
just hold on.
there is nothing to fear,
for i am right beside you.
for all my life,
i am yours.

what about now?
what about today?
what if you’re making me all that i was meant to be?
what if our love never went away?
what if it’s lost behind words we could never find?

(click for full image)

(all images can be found in gallery)

the bf and i took the son to the speakeasy in ponchatoula for their blues jam out on the patio. walked down the street to get a daiquiri. passed pine street pub, a bar owned by scott, a friend of ours from the mardi gras krewe. stopped and peered in through the window into that world of testosterone filled straight boys. and omigod, there were some hotties in there! doug wanted to go in, but i was a wuss and wouldn’t. scott came out and called us “faggots”- but he can get away with that… wanted to know why i was scared to go in, that there were at least two gay guys in there, and maybe a few more that i could corrupt. dunno why straight bars intimidate me so much. maybe, because the only bars i have been in have been in the last seven years of my life, and almost all of them have been gay bars.

anyhoo… after slurping down my white russian, i almost had enough nerve to go in, but i was ready to go home and go to bed by then! maybe next time…

go the fuck away!!!

and especially mondays after a 3-day weekend. oh, well… such is life. went to andrew and elena’s for a crawfish boil yesterday. it finally warmed up (after 33 degrees and 2 hours of rain and sleet sturday night!) but was still cooler than normal. we didn’t go to the quarter last night, just stayed home and watched desperate housewives and brothers and sisters. spent friday and saturday working on cassidy’s props for her pageant next w/e in shreveport… that’s about it- my weekend.

This Afternoon: A 20 percent chance of rain. Cloudy, with a high near 53. North wind between 10 and 15 mph.

Tonight: A chance of rain possibly mixed with sleet (wtf?!). Cloudy, with a low around 33. North wind between 5 and 10 mph. Chance of precipitation is 30%. Little or no snow accumulation expected.

Sunday: A chance of rain. Cloudy, with a high near 55. North wind around 5 mph becoming calm. Chance of precipitation is 40%.

Sunday Night: A 10 percent chance of rain before 1am. Cloudy during the early evening, then gradual clearing, with a low around 35. East wind between 5 and 10 mph.

is it fuckin’ easter?… or christmas?! hell, it wasn’t even this cold at christmas! easter means hot weather, spicy crawfish, and shirtless bois for the annual gay easter parade. maybe we’ll just have to remember what last year looked like…

(click to enlarge - last years easter photos here and here)

due to a server upgrade at my hosting site, any updates during the last two days were lost, including blog posts. i recreated the post from the profiles show, but to hell with what i wrote yeterday… wasn’t important anyways.

10th anniversary show
the profiles show
bourbon pub - new orleans, la
sunday, 4.1.07

d.l. broadway	nicole dubois
dominique delorean	kofi
valerie sugarbaker	tiffany alexander
jessica daniels	jasmine sx
raquel chevallier	haley alexander
anastacia davenport	savanna delorean